Monday, December 22, 2014

R.I.P. Bruce

This is going to be short and sweet....

After I wrote the previous post about my sweet Bruce...he took a turn for the worse.
Completely stopped responding to the meds, he had his final seizure that left him in a coma. The vet ended up putting him to sleep. No one wanted him to suffer.

I don't really have much to say about it other than I feel like a part of our family is missing. Its been 2 weeks and I still feel so sad. I miss his lovins. I say that I want another puppy quick....using the excuse that my son needs that kind of companionship~which he does~but I know that Im just trying to replace Bruce to fill the void he's left behind. However, no other puppy could be my bruce so Im just not really ready yet.

I emailed the breeder and she has yet to get back to me. That was well over a week ago. I knew in my gut that something wasn't right with this lady. I am going to go on the website I found her on and make sure I leave my experience on there with a low rating. People need to know that this woman sold me a dog with serious health problems that didn't even make it to 2!

I know it won't bring him back, but people need to know that their families are at risk for the same thing happening to them.

December 5, 2014
The day my poor baby Bruce left us.

Hope that he's in heaven playing with my Noelle.

Friday, December 5, 2014

My Special Needs Dog


Its 4:15am and Ive been up since 3 with my dog who appears to have had yet another seizure. He is on medication and i do not understand why this keeps happening. Heres the story on my Bruce...

He is a newfoundland. Which I believe are the most beautiful dogs that ever existed. I found out about them 16 years ago and have been in love since. I got one about 8 years ago that I had to find an adopted home for when he was only a year old because the place we were moving to wouldn't allow his size dog (which I later found out everyone had I was kinda mad about it). I waited until it was the right time when I wouldn't have to worry about not being able to have a big dog, or afford it or have the time for him. When the time was right, I was on the hunt again.

After many many puppy pictures and breeder stories online, I found Bruce. I knew when I saw his picture that he was my baby. I called the breeder, talked forever and put my deposit down on my puppy. She sent me pictures of his growth and I was all too excited to go down to Ohio to pick up my baby.

He was PERFECT! The first few weeks were a little rough with the training. We were krate training him so there was a lot of poopy kennel cleaning, but he learned pretty quick and he's been a really easy dog. I have a major bond with him...he feels like one of my children, which is why my ass is sitting out here with him at all hours of the night....he needs his mama.

No, really. He will sit here and bark until I come sit with him. He loves his Jessie, too though.

A few months ago, out of the blue, Bruce started having seizures one night. at first it was just one...then a few hours later, another....then a few hours later another one....only now they were coming back to back and I had to take him to the animal hospital urgent care. With that and a couple trips to the vet, I was given the news that my Bruce was epileptic. They couldnt tell me why, but he is. So he has to stay on medicine for the rest of his life.

The breeder acts like she's never had a problem like this before....I don't buy it and I think she's full of shit! Im angry! I love my Bruce and I wouldn't take him back for anything. We are his family and we are where he belongs....but why MY dog? Why are all of his siblings ok and my dog is not?

He's not supposed to be having these seizures while he is on his medicine, but alas, he is. I will have to call the vet in the morning and update him. Thats 2 seizures in 2 weeks, that just seems to be too much. Im scared that they are going to try to put him down. Apparently, they can play around with the medicines and change dosages to see what helps him better.....I just hope that they can help him soon before something horrible happens. I don't want to lose my Bruce. He's not even 2 years old yet.

Any and all prayers are appreciated.

My poor puppy!

Wednesday, November 26, 2014

The Key To Success

I believe I have found the key to a womens sense of self and freedom.

No, seriously....

I have a few best friends, one in particular that I spend a lot of time with. People always think we are up to no good when I say that we get together at night and quite often, I don't get home til 3am....sometimes earlier but most of the times later. I know that sounds odd. What would a mom of 6 be doing out so late, especially when she has to wake up to get her kids off to school in the morning? 

The Answer?

Taking advantage of this uninterrupted time to get some ME time

No seriously! You wait until the kids are cuddled in the bed and you head on out. ~and why has no one thought of this before now??

~before you go calling CPS on my ass, please know that as of right now, I am lucky enough to have 3 adults at home at night so Im not leaving my children alone.....BUUUT if there were no adults at home, I would definitely do it...and heres long as the oldest kids are old enough and responsible, ~youre gonna wanna write this down....
you take one of their cell phones (this step might just be the hardest) and call your own phone (if you're going to be a while, you put it on the charger) then you keep your bluetooth on, just like a baby monitor....

Course, it helps when my bff is less than a mile away. ~doin a happy dance

Our nights of coffee and cigarettes and chatting (C.C.C.) are most definitely needed. 

Then I came home to reality at 2am...

Meaning laundry is piled up, dishes are everywhere, floor hasn't been mopped and the counters have food all over them! ~reality check

Pretty sure I told the oldest 2 to make sure they split the chores and had it all done because I had been bustin my ass all day long and I was D-O-N-E for the night. Or so I thought but it is now 4am and I am just now done with the dishes. 

Im not mad but I am falling over on this Macbook of mine. ~need sleep now

My blog is like a journal, if you will. Im just recording my journey. You don't have to like me or even agree but this is what works for me!

Pretty mad at the kids but nothing that a little charting can't do ~ie chore charts, bible charts (bwahahahahahaha I am so evil)

Hope it works

Also, a little inspiration for today...

Have an exceptional day today everyone